Allegory

Carpets and Anarchy

It hung around us like the smell of newly – washed carpet
And we know a lot about those – don’t we?
Is there a bigger fool than me?
For thinking maybe – maybe she didn’t feel the same way –
as I did, when I saw her distantly clutching
Her purse – subtly showcasing
The slender artist’s fingers –
forgive me, and forgive – my insanity
I am like a wary pigeon now saying,
To itself: “Hopefully, it’s her there,
Or here” – looking cautiously
Is she around me? I see –
passers-by and lesser souls and
Hearts never so soft and velvety
She’s not around me, but when she was
It hung around us like the breath of God – this newborn baby love
Kicking loudly – like the soul of the world screaming anarchy,
saying: “Notice me!”
I am, I am, I am –
I am constantly!
But I ignored it because I was – afraid
afraid that we weren’t
In parity, equality, balance – I thought –
only I could love so dearly; and I wonder:
Is there a bigger fool than me?

But does it matter?
Fools are the luckiest folk anyway.
The fruit of heaven’s tree lay
In my way – maybe the Devil is just
Heartbroken, and once
Was like me: in love – and madly still
And jealous of Adam and Eve and
the trill of the first wedding bell – in history
Maybe the Devil’s revenge on the world of lovers –
is Hell.

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Admission Mandatory

for S.A.

I spent so much time asking myself
why hardship felt more like shock
than anything else; wondering why
death barely cut my skin
—the way it did in movies—
cuts that healed fast anyway
so that I came to think youth
is invincibility
and feeling
is learned,
not born with;
because how different
are love and heartbreak, really,
from the rest of those sciences
that need learning?

Until I thought to myself
maybe life is a lesson:
“Tutorial on How to Feel: admission mandatory
Graduated to date: everyone
except us,
the present class.
Enrolled to date: everyone
ever.”

You sit in class,
gradually soil your uniform
with sweat and dirt and hot blood,
you bite your pen (as the teachers bite at you)
and love after love
friendship after fight
after happy after sad
after good and after bad
you leave little crumbs of your
previous strength stuck on the
jackets and fallen in the laps
of every person you love,
everyone who hurts you
and who you hurt back.

Life is like that, a lesson:
you sit through the lesson
weakening like wetting paper
over the years threading out
into tired strands:
into old age;
bored in class
until it kills you.

In the Wastelands They Wait

Dressed in her rivers of ice

The Warrior

Rode to the land of The Consumed

To relieve them of their misery

The price of serenity

Bears much.

 

They;

Those emptied, left for dead

Victims of vile intention

Dumped in the wastelands

The homes of those used,

Those broken,

Those wanted no more.

 

There they were to wait

To dwell upon their undoing

To regret, again, again

But no more, she will remedy them

She will end the streak; for now

She has arrived; to

The land where shed tears cut the skin.